Blood Shot red

My eyes are blood shot red,
It started off with only one eye, and progressed to the next
Its like my one diseased eye didint want to be alone and asked for that one final request
Which, didnt leave him clear from the insest because now they were both blood shot red,
you know that feeling where your in so much pain that your heart starts beating faster and faster and you start hearing it out loud,
Sometimes you think that if someone was out to get you they would find you in a crowd
That's the anger and pain building up in your heart
It started slowly and you could barely hear it but it was their from the start
and it cresendoed into such a loud beat that it frightened me
That's when I felt warm tears falling down my dry cold cheek and a loud gasp coming out my mouth
I couldn't stop weeping, my hands began to tremble in desperation and my mind was lost, it was far from my body, it was unknown to existence.
I gazed into your eyes and in the reflection of your glossy black pupil I saw my blood shot red eyes to only remember that I have a mind and a soul, to only remember that their was a reason why I was numb, to only remember the reason. To remember something I didn't want to know. Even sleeping I remember because I feel my blood shot red eyes throbbing and burning like if they were to light on fire. I wake up and they are as red as they were yesterday, only to fill my mind with horrific memories, only to take me back in time. Only to remind me that I won't be able to hide from the truth, that no matter how far I run, I won't be able to hide from reality.